I found gold.

Man, I suck at keeping up on blogs.  I promised gardening photos and such, and I swear that someday I might get to them.  Hopefully before gardening season starts this year. 

So, news...Our little family expansion adventure started in October.  So did my new job.  So did our miscarriage.  One of the hardest things I have ever had to go through, and really devastated me.  I actually even now don't want to talk about it.  Life goes on, and it sure did.  We are now 7 weeks 3 days pregnant.  Hoo-fucking-ray because I thought that it wasn't going to happen.  I had even convinced myself that it would be ok if Josie was an only child.  And thankfully, she doesn't have to be.  Due date is around Oct. 4th.  Yay! 

Now about the gold thing.  I didn't really find gold, I found a golden blog about being a mom.  It is amazing.  This person thinks like me, talks like me, and has a 2 year old that will not sleep, just like me.  Haha, amazing how you can find comfort in other people's pain. At least I know that I am not alone in the world when Jo won't sleep and it feels  it's been a 2 year fight. 

This saturday I am attending a screenwriting workshop.  I am actually pretty excited about it.  The guy that is teaching is/was a screenwriter and I actually have one of his books.  Hopefully it will help me in the way that I need it to. 

Today I am off with Jo, and so far it's been a good morning, other than me watching a lottery show and then crying because I know I have to go back to work tomorrow.  I know, I know, be happy I have a secure job.  And I am, I just wish things were different and I could write full time.  Ah, the dream.  But for now, this is my life.  I just have to plug my ears and close my eyes when I remember that I will be 30 in 32 days, and not get depressed thinking that I am nowhere near where I anticipated.  I am better off than when I was in high school, though.  I didn't even have a direction when I walked out of that building for the last time.  Guess I can find comfort in the fact that my original plan of "just working" and not going to college didn't pan out...shocker!

Happy President's Day!  Hope you get to enjoy it.