Update

So we went to the Pediatric Cardiologist and Josie is healthy and great! She does have a murmur, but the doc says it's a Still Murmur, or an Innocent Murmur. He said she will "grow out of it" but that just means as she gets older, the murmur will be hard to hear because her chest wall will be thicker. WHEW!!! I have never been so relieved in my life!

That aside, I was making an observation about how perspective changes once you have a child. I was once content to let my house get messy, I didn't dust ot vacuum as often, I didn't mind the dog hair unless I was going out somewhere and was wearing black. My dogs were my children and were spoiled as such. Now, I try to keep the dog hair as minimal as possible. I scrub the freaking baseboards about once a week! I wash my hands like I have OCD. And my poor dogs are just dogs.
Roxy pretty much resents me and hates Jos. It's kind of funny. The other day, I had Josie on my lap and Rox was on the floor. Josie was staring at Roxy because she is really starting to pay attention to stuff, which means mommy can't swear so much anymore. But I digress. Anyway, she was staring and apparently Roxy was thinking "What the hell are you looking at, baldy?" and she jumped and barked at Josie. Granted Roxy is tiny, she is a Minature Pinscher, but it scared Josie and she started to cry. So Rox got yelled at and booted outside. But as I was kicking her pissy ass out, I was laughing to myself because it's just a funny power struggle.
Mali couldn't care less. She thinks that Josie tastes good and will slobber on her any chance she gets. Little does she know that as soon as Jos is able, she will be slobbering on Mali.

Another one of my many observations of late, has been how much I need my husband. Now I don't mean in a co-dependant way. I know that if I had to, I could raise Josie, work and maintain some kind of domestic responsibility if I had to. It would suck, but I could do it. What I mean is how much I need him as an adult and as my best friend, lover, right hand man, comic relief and so on. He really is my perfect match. I can't imagine where I would be without him. I definitely wouldn't be happy.
I also have observed how much a parent needs to have adult interaction! Seriously! you take it for granted until you realize you know every word to all the songs on NickJr and how you steal little moments to yourself when possible. I am a bad parent, I put Josie in her chair sometimes and turn on Yo Gabba Gabba! so that I can sit somewhere quiet and space off for 5 minutes.

Motherhood is wonderful and I am so blessed! :D Until later, have a wonderful day!