I'm trying not to be so serious today because I might explode. I have to go back to work tomorrow. YUCK! After 3 months off, I'm supposed to be ready to leave my little girl and go to work. Um, nope. Not ready. I don't know how some people do it. Maybe it's the selfish bitch in me, but I'd rather stay home and hang out with J all day. I wonder what would happen if I just refused to go back...hmmmmmmm day dream bubble...
Whoa, probably not a good idea.
This must be why women are so much tougher than men. We carry this little being for 9 months, do one of the hardest things ever - which is give birth, then we stay with them and watch them grow and learn every second of their little lives and then we have to leave them after 24/7 with them to go to work, when the real work is to be a mom. Shitty no matter which way you look at it.
What I should be doing today:
Cleaning
Laundry
Writing
Some reading
Picking a book for our book club
What I will be doing instead:
Holding J
Crying when I look at her and realize this is the end of our awesome all day adventures
Getting mad and sad in appropriate intervals
Time to suck it up, girl. Sometimes you gotta do what you gotta do. And for me that means going back to work.
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